11th
when we’re being cute we use these smiley faces :] :)
when we’re being silly we use this :P
when we’re horny we use ;)
when we miss each other is the only time we use sad faces :( but only if there’s a :] somewhere else in the text
“that’s not why i’m upset, it just scares me caring about you this much. i’m not good at needing people. i don’t need sex to make me happy because you already do that and not caring about sex scares me even more, because that means this is something different.”
sometimes i just want to climb a mountain with you and hide in the trees just you and me and a little tent and nothing else so i could just take a minute and breathe.
with you it’s never supposed to be
it’s never not supposed to be
it’s not what i’m supposed to say
it’s not playing a game
it just is
and i just am
me
somewhere in a little secret part of my heart i hope that you’re thinking the same thing that goes through my mind and we’re both just too scared to say it.
today you touched a piece of my heart that was very broken and the recoil hurt, i’m scared to let you farther in because i know it’ll keep hurting before you fix it.
it scares me that i am like a baby right now, eating like a normal person, sleeping on a regular basis, not doing drugs, not going to parties, being in a good mood, being happy with my life…all of these things are very new and different and hard and confusing and you’re the reason they’re happening… you help them happen and i don’t know what i would do if i had to try to do it alone.
you’ve been so good for me. and so good to me. and hopefully one day i’ll beleive you when you say i deserve it. i’m afraid that you deserve better.
